



I’m getting sick of my mum. She’s bitching around and confiscated my phone for a shit reason which obviously makes no sense. She thinks that taking everything from me is scaring me. She threatened me to send me to boys’ home(wtf). If I could, I would go willingly bcos im too sick in this family. I cnt stand the sight of my mum anymore. She’s just being an irritant all day. Screaming about my chem results and said nothing whenever I got 19.5/20 for my e.math that topped the class. She mentioned that that was something I had to get. So does it mean that I can go to tuition and not do any practise and get this result? I flunk my chem. And that is bcos I didn’t prepare well. It’s not bcos I have been troubled over a girl over the hols. Wth. She’s so backdated. She’s making me irritating. She took away my phone. She is taking away my life. One day, if I have had enough of her, I may just leave this house. This is what I feel like doing now. I will do it when im prepared to do so. Threatening me to withdraw from cca isn’t anything anyway. Im gona get the cca withdrawl form tmr and see what she has got to say. Threatening me to send me to a school of no reputation isn’t anything either. If she wants, I dun mind and that is bcos she is just saying. She wanted me to go to manjusri(if you know the main reason) and said that I can see her all day and make myself feel happy. WTF. She’s just assuming things are still in square one. Im in square 1000 already. In this family, I don’t feel lyk a family. My dad’s never home. My mum’s often nagging. At least I have my siblings to cheer me up at times. I have no one to talk to now. Im all alone. I cnt talk, I cnt msg. My friends play a bigger role and made more impact on my life than my family has. Im coming clean. In the camp, I know I have learnt to believe that my family is more impt than my friends. But I dun think so anymore. I think my family has family problems. I’d rather live by the streets when everyone suffers tgt, rather than a dispersed family. sigh. I duno. I really dun. Im too sick and tired. I need someone to talk to me. Be it my dad, godfather or peter. Either. But I can do no shit now. My mum’s starting to believe that she makes a lot of sense when she doesn’t. When scolding me, I had so many conflicts I had in mind, but so as to give her enough respect and not make her embarrassed and not to worsen the situation, I said nothing. My mum keeps on bragging about my chem results. Sigh. And when I got full marks the other time, that happiness she had lasted for less than an hour. When I got 4 As in my mye. She said that wasn’t enough. Wtf mann. She doesn’t know me. She set my own goals for me. She didn’t teach me, she didn’t study with me. who is she to judge me and change my goals. She may be my mother. But she knows nothing about me. she still thinks that im contacting matilda. And although I am, I haven been doing that as often. Wtf. She’s getting on my nerves. OHH. And she wanted to cane me if I contact anyone again. Wth mann. CANE. I was thinking of child abuse. And say that im emotionally abused by her. The scars she left in my heart. I can never forget. The time, no, everytime she being unfair, I can remember. Today, I don’t find a purpose in living. Not with my friends by my side. I have no one to talk to. I feel hurt. I cannot let it out. I duno what to do. I may just go mad tmr. Or I may just be an emotional affected person tmr. How can I ever be the same again without my friends? My friends play a more impt role in my life than my family and that is bcos I feel that my family is void. No one is here. No one in this family. no one in this family understands me. she claims that she knows everything about me. but nothing actually. She doesn’t know what im thinking. I need a listening ear. A shoulder to cry on. I find my mum unreasonable and unfair. I really wanna leave this home.
okk fine. its actually freaking tall!
wish upon a star.








the unprepared
pretty iznt it? (:
figure that out yourself. hahas. i have a better pic of her.
i love her smile and hair! (:
she looks better with stright hair. (: yupp.
okk, she din let down her fringe in both pics. she looks outrageously hot, only if that happens. (:
so there you have it,
♥HAYDEN♥PANETTIERE♥ :D
-!SmILeS!- =)
loveherlotts. hahas.
still as sian now... lol. nth to do sia...
so. scorer course was okk: so-so nia. not that wonderful. but the wonderful thing was that when the girls were doing the scorer, they were under the hot, schorching sun but we, under the shade. hahas. cool ehhs. (: and all of them sae not fair. but they are fair you see. that was wad i told tiffany. hahas. cos she sae 'not fair'. lol. and but going to church with joshua tay was cool! hahas.
play play play.
at first, we (lindy, joshua, me) went to joshua's house to eat dinner.sum food i forgot. hahas. and den played xbox till lyk 1915 when we weresuppose to reach the church at 1930, in geylang. lol. late lyk siao. 2000 reach.hahas. we played soccer in the room sia. after everything. hahas. super lame and funny. hahas.
went home and now, presently, currently, bored. hahas.
it seems that the world's falling apart. in the sense of heartship. i din spell any word wrongly.
well. thats all. tired.......... (:
-!SmILeS!- =)
sian lahhs....